Haiz. I've been feeling philosophical the past few weeks. What is the meaning of fairness? How can it just be defined by an individual point of view? If you get something that doesnt sit right how can you just tilt and squint until it "becomes fair"? I guess I'm idealistic so I want to believe that there's an absolute standard of right and wrong. Is there?

For that matter, what is "good" and "bad"? It has to be more than doing what feels the best for you. I could go out and murder the person I can't stand or I could stand on the street selling my organs. These are super ridiculousextreme examples of course. Is goodness about making yourself or others happy? Self-gratification or self-sacrifice? Personal integrity or denial of self? Or is it none of these and just about your devotion to a moral code? Is that the reason we set down so many rules defining the boundaries? Why we turn our world into a black-white morality, because it's safer to completely stay on one side of the fence? Then we don't have to carry the weight of our sins. Sure it's safer to stick to the book, but I wonder if we really live at all like that. I just wonder if there's something more. What would you do if it were a choice between your ideals and your sense of self?

And I mean we're all only human. It's inevitable we'll suck or rock at some point. Is our journey here supposed to be about how we mix our black and white? No one can run away from one side, though I think most of us hope to come out with a lighter shade of grey.

....Just something stuff that's been making me think. Trying understand why we draw so many lines, and whether we're making divisions that don't exist. I wonder if I even know myself. I'm 20 years old but I still feel like a teenager D=

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