Sunday, November 29, 2009
Enjoying the last few hours of thanksgiving holiday before the stress starts. I finally got an idea for arranging, although I have no idea what genre it is. See la try to be clever and progressive and in the end no one knows what the heck you're doing >.<
One more day of November, then it's everyone's festive month. Time's going fast again, and I'll be home in 3 weeks.....if I can manage to finish all this work that I started just today....
One more day of November, then it's everyone's festive month. Time's going fast again, and I'll be home in 3 weeks.....if I can manage to finish all this work that I started just today....
Monday, November 23, 2009
Sunday was fun. Went to church with Amos and friends in Cambridge so it was quite a long train rain. Fun making new friends and checking the church out. It's a nice place, and I'm not just saying that because of the free food. I really got this feeling of peace that's been absent in recent weeks. It's good to remember that in the midst of our personal trials and tribulations, the Big Guy is always looking out for you. I really should do more quiet time.
On a side note, I finally had some really nice hor fun. Nicest since leaving Singapore. I can't wait to get home and just eat eat eat. Especially looking forward to that mountain of sushi=9
Long monday yesterday. Have 1.5 liberal arts papers to write and a song to compose before thanksgiving ends. That's a lot lighter than lots of my other classmates, but it's not stopping me being lazy. Dunno, all the inspiration I get seems to fuel my personal projects instead of my homework. Thinking maybe a pop/indie song cos I'm getting kinda sick of jazz.
Tuesday was nice.
One more day then Thanksgiving holiday...whee.....
On a side note, I finally had some really nice hor fun. Nicest since leaving Singapore. I can't wait to get home and just eat eat eat. Especially looking forward to that mountain of sushi=9
Long monday yesterday. Have 1.5 liberal arts papers to write and a song to compose before thanksgiving ends. That's a lot lighter than lots of my other classmates, but it's not stopping me being lazy. Dunno, all the inspiration I get seems to fuel my personal projects instead of my homework. Thinking maybe a pop/indie song cos I'm getting kinda sick of jazz.
Tuesday was nice.
One more day then Thanksgiving holiday...whee.....
Saturday, November 14, 2009
My life sucks. Wonder how the heck I'm still goin on. I'm just composing lots of metal. Angry angry metal. Thank God there's music....
I don't know what the heck I'm on, but if I can keep this up for 4 years I'll actually be able to make some money =O
I don't know what the heck I'm on, but if I can keep this up for 4 years I'll actually be able to make some money =O
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Kat is not pleased.
Kat is not pleased.
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Ok I think I'm getting too emo. Looking down at the recent entries it's all gloomy and doomy emoness. Cheer up emo Kat....
Tomorrow is a holiday so I'm having fun now. Hmm or maybe as much fun I can have with no one online cos it's 1pm in Singapore. Blah.
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Tomorrow is a holiday so I'm having fun now. Hmm or maybe as much fun I can have with no one online cos it's 1pm in Singapore. Blah.
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Emo ramblings
Monday, November 09, 2009
Haiz. I've been feeling philosophical the past few weeks. What is the meaning of fairness? How can it just be defined by an individual point of view? If you get something that doesnt sit right how can you just tilt and squint until it "becomes fair"? I guess I'm idealistic so I want to believe that there's an absolute standard of right and wrong. Is there?
For that matter, what is "good" and "bad"? It has to be more than doing what feels the best for you. I could go out and murder the person I can't stand or I could stand on the street selling my organs. These are superridiculousextreme examples of course. Is goodness about making yourself or others happy? Self-gratification or self-sacrifice? Personal integrity or denial of self? Or is it none of these and just about your devotion to a moral code? Is that the reason we set down so many rules defining the boundaries? Why we turn our world into a black-white morality, because it's safer to completely stay on one side of the fence? Then we don't have to carry the weight of our sins. Sure it's safer to stick to the book, but I wonder if we really live at all like that. I just wonder if there's something more. What would you do if it were a choice between your ideals and your sense of self?
And I mean we're all only human. It's inevitable we'll suck or rock at some point. Is our journey here supposed to be about how we mix our black and white? No one can run away from one side, though I think most of us hope to come out with a lighter shade of grey.
....Just something stuff that's been making me think. Trying understand why we draw so many lines, and whether we're making divisions that don't exist. I wonder if I even know myself. I'm 20 years old but I still feel like a teenager D=
For that matter, what is "good" and "bad"? It has to be more than doing what feels the best for you. I could go out and murder the person I can't stand or I could stand on the street selling my organs. These are super
And I mean we're all only human. It's inevitable we'll suck or rock at some point. Is our journey here supposed to be about how we mix our black and white? No one can run away from one side, though I think most of us hope to come out with a lighter shade of grey.
....Just something stuff that's been making me think. Trying understand why we draw so many lines, and whether we're making divisions that don't exist. I wonder if I even know myself. I'm 20 years old but I still feel like a teenager D=